The star often thought about his family to drive away the negative thoughts
James Arthur recently admitted he often contemplated suicide when Simon Cowell dropped him from his music label, Syco.
The 28-year-old artist found himself in the middle of a controversial online feud after firing homophobic slurs at Micky Worthless, which resulted in executives kicking him out.
Now the X Factor sensation has changed for the better and is working with Simon and the music label once again. However, he admits that his actions will never be forgotten.
He told the Evening Standard newspaper: “If I was ever near a balcony, or in my car, I’d have an image of me jumping over or driving off the road. But then I’d think, ‘Don’t do it, you’ve got sisters, you’re the man of the family.’ But there was many a time I thought of it.”
And Micky Worthless wasn’t the only victim of his verbal attacks, as the Recovery hitmaker was also battling with singer Matt Cardle and One Direction. In retrospect, James never thought these public disputes would actually impact his career.
“When I was firing away on Twitter no one was calling me up to say: ‘You’re wrecking your career’. Nobody.”
The star wasn’t immediately thrilled when he finally got the call from Syco management to come back. He momentarily considered “sticking the finger up” and continuing as a solo artist, but later changed his mind.
He shared: “I probably shouldn’t say this, but there was a part of me that thought: ‘F**k you, I might have a hit single here and I don’t need Syco. I could stick the finger up to them’.
But they said: ‘Please let us back in. We want to be part of this amazing story’. And it made sense to me. I’m a sucker for that story. Syco are notorious for dropping people, so what a compliment it is for them to re-sign me. So I thought, ‘Let’s do the full circle’.”